Sad emotional day for the Freeman family

Wow I must say I am very heart broken, and my heart breaks for this family.

They are the Freeman family and I have been reading their blog for awhile. Yesterday their one pound miracle baby has died after spending 11 months in the hospital. The Lord has taken her home.

Kayleigh was born 12 weeks premature weighing 1lb she fought for 11 months of her life. Her family was ready to take her home but one surgery left to repair a hernia and well something went wrong, Kayleigh was left brain damaged. Yesterday she passed away.

Please pray for the Freeman family... They will be on the Doctor's tomorrow (Wednesday)- http://www.thedoctorstv.com/main/content/Kayleigh

Here is the families website -http://kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com/

This Family is Amazing

Well this family is amazing, they have triplets and then adopted two little boys both with some medical problems and now they are going for 2 girls!

Check them out- http://fromthetrenchesofadoption.blogspot.com/

They are also doing a draw for a free IPOD Nano 8GB all you have to do is donate $5 and get your name in for the draw so they can bring their little girls home from Bulgaria!

So once again the website is -http://fromthetrenchesofadoption.blogspot.com/

rough time

well today sucks... All I want is to be a mother instead I am a women who suffers from infertility and well let me tell you it sucks.

I was suppose to go to the hospital on Tuesday to get an HSG and Ultrasound, so I had my period (AF- Aunt Flo) for 14 days and well all was going well. THEN Saturday we drive 1 hour and 40 mins and I get to walmart and what do I notice AF are you kidding me OMG!! So now it sucks... I have to cancel all my appointments.

Why can't things work out in our time, God has his hand and I wonder what he has planned.

Anyways Happy Mother's Day to those mother's out there and those that want to be a mother

Cats+ chipmunks= entertainment

So I sit here and think about how hard some try to have a baby and then how others pop them out, and how others just have horseshoes and are able to get what they want now! Then they have bumps and don't understand why...

This mother's day I am hoping and praying it will be the last that I won't be a mother.

As I sit her and think I am very thankful for my life!

Evan and I both have wonderful families, even though Evan's live so far away we were blessed with his family for 5 wonderful years. And I am thankful we have my family to be close by and all my friends here. I missed a lot living in Ontario but was greatful for the wonderful family members and friends we have and miss them all dearly.

Well I have decided the last few days I have been crabby over a fight with someone and I have decided no one is worth the stress and emotions I had. I was pretty frustrated.

I have been lucky to have two wonderful cats who I love and the last two days have been crazy here and I have to say I am really mean.
Yesterday Howie was sitting on the tv stand and went flying into the window like a bird.. There was a a chipmunk... Haha well this chipmunk has tormented my cat all day. Well this morning who came back but the wonderful chipmunk oh man I am mean, I threw out some almonds and now there are two and they are driving my cats nuts. Hahaha I am so mean... But its a good laugh for the week I have had hahaha

Life is full of adventures

Well Evan's aunt follows my blog and asked what was new

Well here is the low down..

I go for my HSG and an ultrasound on May 12th, For those who don't know what HSG is its to check to see if your tubes are open. After this if all is well with my tubes and stuff we will do clomid!

Now a big worry with clomid is multiples I do know it can happen but will it happen I dunno, It all depends if how man mature Follies I have. If we had 8 we would talk about it but 8 is pushing it but what are the chances... I have a friend who had 8 and did IUI and none took. And who knows about if the sperm can make it to the eggs. Its great LOL the joys of my life.

Then we move on to adoption we have 18 chapter with tons of questions we are working through. Its tough but we are making it through. Then we will meet with the social worker. Its great.

I am very thankful to have supportive people in my life and that I know some won't so its better just push them out of the way and go on with true family and friends. The ones you know will be there for you no matter what.

Evan and I have big decisions to make in life right now and the worst thing is people butting in and trying to tell me what I should do, I don't tell them what to do so they should not tell me what to do at all.... Its taking me back to I shouldn't live with Evan before marriage... Well its no one else's business. What happens... I know a lot of stuff and I don't go attacking people pushing stuff in their face... I have tons of close friends that I have learned a lot from.

So there you have it where we stand!
We are hoping to do clomid next month I will try to post but it will probably more private as I want to be private about stuff now.