Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Our Son!

It's funny how almost a year ago I was writing a post about Christmas and how all I wanted was that gift of a child.

Well God gifted us with the best present ever, June 3rd was the best day of my life, when we got the phone call! on June 18th we made our way 7 hours away to meet with the foster family, social workers and that day our hearts jumped for joy as we were told we were going to become parents for sure!

I once again had to wait, 5th year mark and we waited again June came, July came and the 13th we got to see a picture of our baby boy! On the 31st we laid eyes on him for the first time ever, his name is Sean he is 2.5 years old he will be 3 in January he is beautiful, he has bright blue eyes and he is our son! For 8 weeks we hung out with Sean almost every day, we had to return him and those days broke my heart, I cried and missed him so much.

On September 25th Sean was welcomed into our home forever! We love him to pieces and would never trade him for anything!

Sean has fragile x and Autism and it makes me love him more!

Sean is delayed in speech but is getting much better since its just been us at home with him.

Sean has 4 siblings and 2 are still not adopted and I pray one day they will be

Sean's middle name is Karl with no E!

This Christmas we will have a christmas with Sean he will be our true blessing! We thank God for him daily!

Our lives have changed and we love it!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Struggling this Christmas

Christmas is around the corner

Well today I am having a really rough day, prayers are needed. I look under the tree and see all these gifts that belong to my spoiled rotten much loved niece and think how much the gift I really want is not under there and how tough it is this year to have Christmas.

I thought I would be okay with this but this week 3 people have said they are pregnant, once again here we go again how many like time it was 20 in 2 weeks... How many the week before Christmas? Don't get me wrong I am happy but hurting deep inside. One person is someone who is really close to me and man does it make the wound sting harder.

I keep talking to my friend about this all and I cry when I tell her and its tough because I know my time will come but seriously HOW LONG??

Today I was thinking, all I wanted when I was 19 and married was to live in Elkford and have Evan have a great job at the mine, it took 5 years for it to happen and when it did it wasnt quick it was June Resume, August 1st interview, September 2nd interview in person and October hired.. So here I sit and think All I want now is to have a family, children of my own, children I can love and cuddle and have call me mom. Its tough this March it has been 4 years of waiting and trying, I hope I am a mom before the 4 year mark.

Please keep us in your prayers and pray that 2010 brings us wonderful news quickly and that I dont have to wait anymore its tough.. I have learn patients and well its time.

God please help me make it through hopefully my last ever alone Christmas of not being a mother, this is tough God and I need your help.

Denise

Monday, August 24, 2009

On my mind

Wow its been awhile since I have posted, that is because Evan and I have a blog together now and I have been posting there. http://waitingforalittlereker.blogspot.com/

This blog may be all over the place but what have I been thinking about lately. When did you start on the internet? Do you have relationships/friendships that you will never forget? What do you do on the internet?

Well for me I started on the internet 11 years ago and I chatted in a Christian chatroom then I found another one after that where I met Evan. But I had some strong friendships with people when I was a teen and in time we stopped talking to one another or we drifted apart.

Well Jesus Cafe I met my friend Kaci and Brian we got in a lot of trouble in the site that one day we all got banned until we apologized for what we did wrong. Brian was Kaci and my man and I spent tons of hours talking to Brian and Kaci each night. Well years have gone by and I talk to Kaci maybe once a year and Brian I have talked to randomly. Brian was a musical guy who drove a van and delivered papers. To me he was a sweet guy and I introduced him to my IRL friend Christine who dated him for awhile and actually got the pleasure of meeting him, it just didnt work out for them. Well this past week I was driving by Brandon MB and it was early so I thought I would try to see if Brian has been on facebook recently or if he was at camp, every summer he went to camp to be a counselor, well my heart sank, a piece of me was ripped away when I read Brian died... WHAT are you kidding me how he is only 27 years old, Brian OMG I talked to you in June everything was going good. Brian passed away July 3rd while delivering his papers, he had chest pain and sat in his van and died. I am so upset that he died alone, God I pray he didn't suffer at all and I pray he wasn't alone in the van. My heart still breaks. Brian I will never forget you, it breaks my heart we never met. Brian I feel awful for your family as your brother died 2 years ago.

Please if you have dear friends who mean a lot to you please try to find them and tell them how much you care for them. You never know when they will be gone. Friendships may only last awhile but memories last a life time.

There are a few friends I had when I was young, I always wonder what happend to them, I think I will go and search and see if I can find them.

I was going to share with you my fav blogs I read but for now I will leave you with that.

Rest in peace Brian Cookson I will never forget you



Brian James Cookson (August 21, 1981 - July 3, 2009) of Brandon passed away suddenly on July 3, 2009 at the Brandon Regional Health Centre. Brian spent his entire life in Brandon. He attended Green Acres, J.R. Reid, Waverly and Neelin High School, graduating in 1999. At the time of his passing, he delivered early morning papers for the Winnipeg Sun. He also worked for the Brandon School Division as a lunch supervisor for Meadows School and as an EA for the woodworking shop at Riverheights School. He was a member of Big Brothers and Sisters, and The Salvation Army. He enjoyed music from the time of his birth. He played violin with the Conservatory Orchestra, making many tours with this group. He also toured with the Neelin School Choir to Prague in 2000. Brian played in the Brandon University Orchestra and for the last five years with the Brandon Community Orchestra on viola. He also played euphonium in The Salvation Army band and keyboard with the Praise and Worship Team. In recent years, Brian began to write music and do arrangements for the BCO. Brian is survived by his parents, Charlie and Edna Cookson, a brother, Dave (Wanda) Cookson, and a sister, Beverleigh (Kevin) Broughton. He also has six nephews. He was predeceased by his brother Rick in 2007. A Celebration of Life service will be held at the Brockie Donovan Chapel, 332-8th Street, on Saturday, July 11, 2009 at 1:00 p.m. with Capt. Bruce MacKenzie of The Salvation Army officiating. Interment will follow at Rosewood Memorial Gardens. In lieu of flowers, donations may be placed with The Salvation Army, 9 Princess Ave. East, Brandon, MB, R7A 1R8 or to a charity of your choice.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Prayer

A little boy named Stellan has been living with SVT (rapid Heart beats) is in bad shape and needs all our prayers.
Please pray for him and his family, pray his heart will be healed.

http://www.mycharmingkids.net/


Stellan, Jen and PC you are in my prayers

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

McLinky

There’s a great new “linky” service available and I wanted to let you know about it. It’s called MckLinky – www.mcklinky.com. After realizing the need for a new, reliable linky capability, Brent Riggs and MckMama got together to create a free, easy to use linky service for all their blog friends.

MckLinky is a free link list feature that allows you to do include lists of other blog links like MckMama does on Not Me! Monday. You can use MckLinky any time you want your blog readers to leave a list of links on your blog. It’s simple, reliable, free...and loads of MckFun!

Thanks for spreading the word, good "luck" and happy MckLinking!